New Years Resolutions.

So, it's the fifth of the year already. No one ever believes grown ups when they tell you that time goes faster & faster as you get older. Well, I guess I am a grown up now because I believe it. At this rate, I'm going to be 60 years old and a grandma in the blink of an eye.

It being the fifth and all, I thought I'd get around to making some resolutions. Although, to be quite frank, I'm tired of making them and having no follow through. There's no one to blame for that, other than myself, but just the same it's gotten old.
So resolution #1 is to follow through, or at least attempt, all my resolutions.
I think that's where I went wrong in the past. I would jump right into things without having any sort of gameplan ahead of time. Well, no longer shall I not look before leaping!

Sounds good so far, right? Okay. What next? This year I want to become more reliable. As a friend, as an employee, as a daughter... as a human. I really want to be the kind of person who does what she says she is going to do. I haven't been that thus far. Mainly because I haven't really had any clue as to what I actually wanted to do; nevertheless- excuses, excuses. I want to show up early to every event, be it work, a date, or merely hanging out with friends. I want to always show up and not have to bail out on anything, assuming that I am able to show up and/or participate. No more MIA for me.
Resolution #2 is to be more reliable. Seems like I'm hung up on this follow through thing doesn't it?

Oh the cliche. This year, I REALLY want to get into shape, and lose at least 45 pounds. It's going to be quite a feat, and I talk about doing it every year. I think the fact that I need to lose at least 45 pounds clearly depicts my prior follow through for this resolution. I'm already on my way to that goal. I've lost 3 of my holiday weight gain pounds. I'm not including this in the 45 though. Even if I don't lose all the specified weight, I would be happy to be able to actually go on a jog and not nearly die from such labored respiration.
Resolution #3 is to lose weight and get in shape. 2011 WILL be the year it actually occurs.

101 in 1001. Something we all heard a great deal about from me. Well, I've fallen on my face with my 101 items. I don't even know where I stopped. So I am just going to restart. I'm going to do this by going through my list and evaluating what is still important to me, and what may need to be changed. I'm assuming that since I haven't been keeping up with it, that there's lots that need to be edited. It's not starting over, it's resuming.
Resolution #4 is to get back on track with my 101 in 1001.

I used to be on fire. I used to serve and worship the Lord with all my heart. These days He's been more of an afterthought, and I know that's breaking his heart as much as it's breaking mine. I don't have anything specific in mind. I just know that I need to pay more attention to his heart tugs. He's an important part of my life equation that I've been trying to factor out.
Resolution #6 is to re-fan my fire for God.

If you've followed this blog at all, or personally know me, you understand that I have NO CLUE what in the world I am going to do with my life. This doesn't scare me as much as it once did, but maybe that's just because I've become numb to the dilemma. This year, the year in which I will turn 21, is the year that decisions will be made and the inactivity of numbness must turn to the dedicated soul-searching of resolve.
My 6th, and I'm sure not final, resolution of 2011 is to find direction. I feel it in my bones that I am near to it. Surely I must stumble upon it soon.

Sounds like I've got a big year coming up. I hope and pray that it's all it's supposed to be, and that yours is too. Thanks for following me, and good luck with your own resolutions.