Ridiculous

Yep, that's spelled right. It's not re it's ri. Anywho, it's exactly what the price of flights are. Ridiculous. My mom called me on her way home from work to have me check flight prices for her. She's going up to Maine in a couple of weeks to check out some of the area Targets for her transfer in the beginning of June.
Yes that's right, my dear mother is moving to Maine in June. I'm super excited for her, and being able to go briefly visit snow for virtually free anytime I want to. She's moving up there to be with the other great love of her life (the first two being me and Rudy). I'll miss the crazy women with all my heart. But I'm also very excited to be a lot on my own. I'll still be with my grandmother here, but I won't have a legal guardian anymore. That's so strange to me. I mean I know it's part of life, and I'll be 20 later this year so I technically haven't had one for a while. But I've always had to ask my mom if I could go out for the weekend, or if so and so could come over, or had to take her opinion into account as to what we are doing for dinner. I won't have to do that ever again after she leaves. It'll just be me and grams (my mom's taking my faithful Rudiger with her), and lets face it grams is no supervision whatsoever.
Now that it's really starting to hit me that she's MOVING in a few months, I'm kind of scared but very excited. I can't explain it fully. I guess it's like when you move away from your parents, but in reverse. Not the actual emotions, but kind of because I'm home now and she's the one that is always going to have to know her way back to me, instead of the reversed me leaving home and her worrying about me knowing my way home.
It's not goodbye by any stretch, but it is distance. It's not having her sitting there waiting to talk to me, or me being able to tell her about my brilliant idea for a new series of workout videos (true story:coming soon) as soon as it pops into my head.
I'm assuming we'll email all the time (probably actually facebook since I don't really ever check emails - yes, I'm a terrible person) and we'll talk on the phone at least everyday in the beginning.. but I'm assuming it will start to fade. That's the scary part I think, only because it's so different. Not talking everyday. Will I be okay with that? My mother and I have been known to have our fair share of differences, what happens when we have our first long distance fight? Will I become one of those people you hear about who haven't talked to their parent in years? That's a really scary thought. I know this is silly to think about right now, but bringing the boyfriend home will be a huge event whenever the day happens. Because it will mean taking a trip away together. Everything becomes more monumental when she leaves. Every time we get to see each other will be even more precious because it's no longer an everyday occurrence. You really take your mother for granted over the years, you know? You don't realize how much she means to you until she isn't gonna be there like all the time.
Woah, this got way heavy. To think I actually started out frustrated with her because she made me miss a few songs to check her flight prices... Man, I haven't picked March's verse yet, but I have a filling it's going to be something to do with gratitude. Lessons, they're always there waiting to be learnt when you least expect it.