Change is Inevitable

I've been having the wonkiest day ever today.
I woke up with so much sleep in my eyes that they were sealed shut. Oober gross, I know. I haven't been able to find my phone, which I am not disconcerted about. It's in my room somewhere, I'm just patiently waiting for someone to call it. To top it all off, I have been so reminiscent today, and about weird things too.

I remember going to this flea market with my mother when I was way little. We came acroos this both that was selling really old, antiquey type things and I remember them having this box full of really old pictures of random people and things. At the time I remember thinking, why in the world would someone want to buy someone else's old photos (except I probably didn't think the word photos because as I said, I was wicked young). The reason I even remembered this in the first place, is because I was thinking about getting a small stock of them. They'd be great for scrapbooking decor. I really love looking through other people's memories.
If you had asked me as a young child what my favorite color was, I would have blurted out ''pink and pulple.'' I had a speach impediment, don't judge. Now, it's without a doubt yellow. Hop back in your time machine and ask the little me what I thought a wedding dress should look like. I'm so sure that my answer would have been the Bridal Barbie doll I had. I would have held her up proudly and said ''like dis.'' Now the styles I used to idolize kind of make me feel sick, okay, they make me feel really sick. Ask me 2-3 years ago what I would be doing right now, and I would have said ''I'll be a Flagler, studying theater and getting ready for my Broadway career.'' Now, I honestly have too many ideas, and therefore have no idea what I'm going to be doing.

So yeah, changes happen. We just kind of embrace them as they come to us. My monthly tarot reading from horoscope.com said that I'll find myself this month, and I'm so ready to embrace this self I am going to find, but I don't think the changes are over yet. I don't feel any different, even though I have realized how different I really am today. I guess I'll keep on trudging trying to find the answers I'm so desperately seeking. I can't wait to look back on this day someday and think of how different, or perhaps similar, I am am to that me.