Every Day of Joy

''Everyday You make sense of me in the midst of my insanity. Give me hope, give me love, give me strength, make me free. Every day of my life.''

Today is all about the Joy Williams tunes for me. I had the urge to listen to all her albums today. And boy, what a great urge that was. It's like she is singing her words straight from my soul. But the song that I'm really feeling the most today is Every Day off of the By Surprise album. ''But in all the midst of lists to do I need some help to change my point of view.'' Recently I have had that change of view. I'm viewing things from a place I wasn't in before. A peaceful place that lets me know ''It's All Good'' [another Joy song, track one of her first album]. So far in my life God has always taken care of me. He has given me the hope, love, strength, and freedom that I need to make it through. I'm coming slowly to realize that ''there's so much more I'm finding than living life so blinded and confused cause where I find my freedom is serving at God's feet and I'm listening, searching, just waiting, working every, every day.'' Who I want to be is not who I have been lately. I want to be the girl that doesn't live life so blinded and confused, I want to be the girl that is living at God's feet listening to him, searching for him in everything, just waiting for him to move me, working for him every single day of my life.
My mom is moving to Maine next October, when her boyfriend gets back from Iraq. They might get married one day, but that's not what all of this is about right now. They love each other very, very much. And now they get to have the life that they could have had so long ago if it hadn't been squandered by certain circumstances in their life back then. But I believe that that was God's work. Now that she is moving, and I have a definite date, I am really motivated to get my life on track. And to start really making something of myself. God knew that one day I would need this motivation that I now have. I can look back over my entire life and constantly see God's movement there. Even this summer, well really this summer and my last semester of high school, when I ''fell'' away. I can see his work in that. I needed to fall away to know that he was what I really wanted to follow. To know that I need him in my life. I needed to know that I wasn't following him because I ''had'' to but I am following him because I choose to.
My life right now doesn't have a definite plan of action. I'm taking it day by day. But now I am listening intently for God's plan for me. I am listening for his next direction. Right now I am getting this feeling that I need to be in Orlando. It's a really strong feeling, especially when I am there visiting Rachel, my heart is at peace. All my options at this point can be achieved there. Plus I need to get away from here. I know that. I'm going crazy being here is this area where I have lived for so long. I think that is really God's work. He made me who I am, and he gave me a need for change, and I think he is calling me to Orlando. So that's the plan for now I guess. Unless He changes his mind.
I really love just sitting and thinking about how God works through all of us. I can see him moving in me. I can FEEL him moving in me. It's so powerful, and well...
''It's so typical I'm always amazed when it comes to you It feels so natural to be blown away when I stop and think of how your love is etched upon my heart and how no matter if I laugh, if I hope if I dream you're a part of me.'' So big thanks to Joy Williams for eavesdropping on my soul, and bigger thanks to God for working in and through me even though I clearly don't deserve it. And a thanks to you for reading...