Thick and Thin

I'm a really big, fat hypocrite.
As of the past year or so, I've had this motto; "Don't wish for what you could work for."
It started when a facebook friend was complaining about how much time she spent trying to win these concert tickets and ended up not getting them (go figure, huh?). I don't know why it bothered me so much, but then and there I decided that I never wanted to be that person. I wanted to have the things I wanted, but I knew I would never have them if I didn't work for them.

Well as of... all my life, I've looked at pictures of girls with, what I consider, perfect bodies and I've wished that that was me. I have a pin board on pinterest dedicated to getting healthy and pictures of bodies I want. This is where the hypocrisy comes in. I've been wishing for these bodies and NOT working for them. Time I spend looking at all these girls could, and more importantly should, be spent training my body. Conditioning my body. Taking care of my body.
I can't even tell you how many times I've gazed while eating some McDonald's, or a donut, or some other terrible thing for my body. It's almost quite comical when you think about it.

Honestly, all my reasons for wanting to lose weight and be skinny aren't the healthiest. Wanting to look sexy in a bathing suit at the beach so cute guys will look at me isn't a healthy reason at all. It feeds into the images that the media say we should conform to. But you know, I really just don't care anymore. I'm not doing myself any favors by using that as an excuse while I shove fries down my throat!
I don't hate what I see in the mirror, but I don't love it. I want to so bad. I want to be comfortable. I don't want to tug at my clothes anymore to pull them out of/over my fat rolls. I want to feel good about myself naked.

This is about being stronger than excuses. Stronger than self doubt. Stronger than I ever thought I could be. Stronger than anyone else ever thought I could be. Stronger than temptations and cravings. Strong enough to 100% confident, healthy, and happy.

This is about getting a body that makes another get up and be stronger than all those things too.