Or so I'm told. It's just not something that seems to come very naturally to me.
Literally everyone I speak to lately is either getting married, or going to a wedding, or just got married. Honestly, it's really frustrating for me. All my work friends are married, and have their little families, and I'm... well I'm only 20 and have to wait longer. I know that I want marriage more than anything.
Secondly, if people aren't involved with a wedding they are having babies. This of course, is my second biggest dream. To be a mother someday. To be expecting. I want to read pregnancy books and take prenatal vitamins and have strangers come up to me and try to rub my belly like I'm a Bhuda.
Most of the time, I can overcome these urges. Other times... it has me in tears. You know, you get tired of praying and waiting no matter how much you love God.
I have to remind myself daily that I shouldn't base the happiness of my future upon things that are not promised to me, such as marriage and having a family. I have to keep telling myself that I am only 20 years old. I have to keep relaying the fact that each day is a gift and there is never a guarantee of tomorrow.
Tomorrow is what I want though, and I want it now.
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