Melodious Sonnets

A while back, when I changed the name of this blog to Felicitous Adventures... it almost was Melodious Sonnets: God's Pressence In My Life.

I second thought-ed myself on it however... because I know not every moment of my life is about God.
Yesterday, and even more so this morning, I've been saddened by this thought. I am angry with myself for how often I let God fall to the wayside in my life. He is my provision, and once he's providing steady blessings I'm all "K thanks, think I can handle it from here man!" It's really proposterous, in its primest example. How in the world do I let myself be so prone to wandering from the fold of God? I'll tell you how, because I don't let every moment be about God.
How much different would my life be if it were? What if God were the only thing I truly feared?
The most sad thing to me right now is that even though my heart aches for my creator, soon I'll be asking myself yet again why I don't let him be a bigger part of my life... why I don't let him be my life.
I spoke of how God has shown himself to me as provision so often lately, and how I wondered what his grand purpose for this might be? I think I've realized that it's not grand in a large sense, because I am not a large sense to the world. Him revealing himself to me as such is for my benefit, he wants to be the grandest thing in my world.
God, all I can do is continue to say I am sorry. I am, from the bottom of my heart. God in your streams of mercy, you have granted me endless grace. The most eloquent words could not express the gratitude of my soul.
This is my sonnet today.