Nobody really fears dying... it's not living anymore which truly scares us. The thought that this life, which is all we know, will be no more. We will cease to exist here. It's a race against time that we all lose.
I just got done watching Tuck Everlasting. It's not the first time I've seen the film, and I doubt it will be the last. However, it's the first time it's theme really struck home. I feel... different somehow, and yet the same.
I've had an epiphany I believe, it's that I've been very naive. More naive than I had imagined. So naive that I am surprised I even know of the word. It's not that I've been gullible, although I am sure at points that I have been. It's that I've been... I've been.... Ignorant. Unknowlegable. Blind. I've been living like I'll have forever to do so. Like I will never cease to exist. I will however. Someday my ticker will stop ticking, my flame will go out, it will be time for me to move on and make way for the next soul to enter this strangely beautiful, traggic, wonderful life.
I'm not grown up. For the first time in my life I am not scared to do so though. To grow up. I don't have to live forever, I just need to live. It's not say that I'm not afraid of not being any longer, I just know now that there is nothing I can do to avoid it. If I've got to live, then I might as well do it my way. As soon as I find it...
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