Positive Thinking

I always feel great when I figure out how to solve an issue on my own.
Ever since I first created this blog, and I started following others I could not for the life of me figure out how to get it set so my picture would show under their followers (don't judge). Well I just figured out how to set it. I feel better.

I also was going through some of the blogs I follow, it's an interesting mixture. If you were to describe me based solely off of the things I read about I am a girl who loves Jesus, Weddings, Fairy Tales, Sleep Talkers, Art, Fashion, Life, and Literature/Grammar. All very true of myself.
I've figured out that I am quite the little hodgepodge. I mean I guess it's something that I always knew, I even mentioned it to my grandmother today as we perused the shelves of a thrift store. I said to her ''I have such an eclectic taste.'' She just said ''yeah..'' and walked away from me and the particularly heinous shoulder bag I was holding up. I guess I've never mentioned that I never fail to find the weirdest thing upon entering a store. Seriously, I'm like a magnet to the strange and unusual. I can't help it. But as of late I am becoming more aware of the little idiosyncrasies that make up who I am. I like what I'm becoming aware of.
I've been so about working towards this mental image of the woman I want to be, that I never even thought to stop and take stock of who I already am.
I think this is something that we all do. Seriously, we get so caught up in the idea that we constantly need to be bettering ourselves when we don't even know who we are to begin with. For instance, my verse for this month was chosen because I wanted to work on being more patient. Before deciding that this was something I needed to work upon, I didn't pause and think of times when I showed great patience or when I needed to show more patience. I just aimlessly conceived some virtue that I had no firm grasp of how well, or not so well I was portraying.
I held a crazy amount of patience earlier in the month when I was supposed to hang out with/babysit my little cousin Madi on no sleep whatsoever because I made the decision to go out with my Rachel all night prior. I knew that I could have gotten crabby, I could have sulked, but I made the best of both situations by hanging out/engorging upon a yummy egg sandwich and starbucks with my best friend and spending an entire day with my wonderful kid cousin. I was really proud of myself at the time that I didn't have any mood swings with Madi, and looking back I am even more proud because I made the wisest decision for myself in that situation AND displayed more of some asset I willy-nillyly reckoned I needed more of. In contrast, yesterday when my dog tripped me as I was walking down the hallway carrying a pile of freshly laundered clothes and I raised my voice at him I really should have been more patient with him because he's getting old and can barely see anymore. I now know that I need to be more patient with my dog because I felt bad for yelling at him.
See what I mean, you have to take a moment sometimes and realize your strengths and weaknesses. Reward yourself for those strong suits, and make a mental note of when you need to illustrate that strong suit more.