Hey everybody, I'm Alaysia. I'm 19 years old (basically lol, in less than 24 hours). I live in Florida. Before I embark upon the adventure that is this blog I am starting, I want to say thank you. If you only read one of my blogs, or you stick with me like white on rice, thank you for reading. It means the world to me that you would spend some of your precious life on me. AND NOW I PRESENT YOU WITH....
ASPIRATIONS TO ANOMALIES
Life is something that is an inexplicable occurence. You can't stop it, and you can't propel it. All you can do is leave your imprint on things. This blog is going to be my imprint on the world. One that I can intentionally leave everyone with. One that will hopefully help you as much as it will help me. Writing has always been my catharsis, and a teaching guide. Almost all of my self discovery has occured through writing. What I've learned more than anything is that my aspirations make me an anomaly. I have never been like other people. My aunt Linda says that I have a true artist's spirit/vision. I don't know if that is the truth. I'm not even sure if either of us fully knows what that entails. But I wold say that it is at least applicable in some ways. I've always been sort of lofty. I talk about things that others rarely think of. I think things that I don't know how to verbalize. I see things in ways that intertwine themselves within the strings of my heart. And sometimes I have a problem with this, especially as of late. I've started worrying that people can't understand me. That I'm this iceberg that people aren't even seeing the top chunk of. I think this is partly because I don't even know if I understand myself. But that really got me thinking.....
To understand? To comprehend? To know?
What are these things really when applied to living? Can the two be done simultaneously? Are they supposed to be?
To answer these questions, one must ask one's self: When does understanding come? At the end of the process. So I don't think we are supposed to understand things until the end. We can't comprehend it all. We can't know it all. You will come to find out that I rarely say the impossible. I do not believe that many things in life are... but understanding is a different story. Understanding is the story, and you don't know the end until it is over. So living and understanding can not be done simultaneously. Living has to be about the moment. Living has to be about aspirations and anomalies. Because your aspirations are not my aspirations, it makes all our aspirations strange unique occurences. We all have a different road to travel, and something different to understand in the end. But for now we are in the similar boat of life. I'm at the point where I'm accepting the fact, that I don't understand. But I am not going to let that keep me from living. And I'm not going to let this incomprehension keep me from being me.
That's what I want this blog to be. I want you to be able to read about my life. I said before that this will be my intentional imprint on the world. I intend to keep doing this blog through out my entire life. In the end, you will understand me and I will understand me. This will be my journal, only I'm allowing the whole world to see it. I'll share my hopes and my dreams. My goals. I'll share my successes. And I'll also share all of the failures and crushed dreams. All the squandered chances. There are things for us to learn in life and I believe we learn from one another. We don't learn from books, we don't learn from movies, and we don't learn from music. We learn from the people who wrote the books and inspired the books. We learn from the people who crafted the movies and music we occupy parts of our time with. People always say that life imitates art. Well art is crafted around life.
So... I will leave you all to think about all this. I'm gonna go think about some more things. And I'm gonna celebrate my birthday. I'll tell you all about it next time.
Thanks again for reading this : )
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