fuel on the fire

Okay, so everyone that knows me would tell you that I'm a Christian. And this is true, for the most part.
Well this summer, I kinda really fell away from all of that. I fell away from Christ, I wasn't living it any more. I wasn't doing terrible things but I wasn't holding myself up to God's standards for me anymore. I wasn't being who God wanted me to be. I was being who I thought I wanted to be. I had a summer of rebellion, a summer of falling out. But I'm back. This summer is over now. I'm so back on track, and I'm ready to start living the life God wants me to lead.
Only thing is I'm not sure where I am being led right now since I have been off track for a little while. I think firstly, I need to find a good church in my area for now. I'm a non-denominational christian, but I am really not apposed to attending a denominational church as long as they base their beliefs in the bible alone and not on man-made customs. Maybe after that God will reveal his next step for me.
I took a quiz this morning on my fb. It was a what is your ministry calling quiz, and well my results were actually something I feel quite a strong pull towards and always have. Now normally I really don't put much stock in those fb quizzes,but... I don't know. Anyways my result was missions and outreach ministry. Now if you know me, then you know that I have always had the most insatiable desire for travel. And if you know me, you know I like to help plan and organize things. And if you know me, you know I love God. Isn't that what missions is kinda about, you plan and organize a trip somewhere [could be around the corner, or you could have to board a 15 hour flight to get there] so you can go spread the love of God. Hmm, this is something I really want to give more thought. I don't know if it can be done right now [well I know that I can't do it, but if it's what God wants then it will happen [eventually, when he wants it to happen]] but if it could I would so hop right on board.
In other news lately my dream life has been very active. I put a lot of stock in dreams because I think that God can reveal things to you through your dreams [it's a biblical based belief]. And I have had two dreams lately that have really stuck with me, I feel that they are plans for me deep down in my bones. One was my Turkish dream. I had this dream that I am going to go to Turkey and I am going to meet my ''Mr. Right'' there. There were a few weird coincidences in the dream, that can't fully be explained. One was the fact that Turkish phrases were said in my dream, and I have NO background in Turkish. Not even the slightest bit. Unless you count my knowing that modern day Turkey is a birth place of civilizations, or when you go through the ''Turkey'' part on the It's a Small World ride at Disney World. Also in my dream I was at Maiden's [Leandros'] Tower. Never heard of that place before either. But I got up and googled it the next morning, and well it's a real place. It is on a small islet that the Athenians built thousands of years ago to control passage through the Bosphorus Strait during the Persian War [I'm pretty sure it was the Persian War, but please feel free to correct me if I am wrong]. SOOOOOOO weird right. So I think I may be marrying a Turkish man lol. The other dream was really weird, but it's just something that I feel deep in my bones is accurate. Whomever I marry is going to be a youth pastor. I don't really want to go into that dream because well... it's just too weird to talk about for me lol. But yeah.
Hmmm, I think that is all the blogging I have in me for right now. As always, tesekkur ederim for reading [tesekkur ederim is Turkish for thank you]. Lovies, muahs, Alay =]